Breathe

Why can't I accept who I am?

Why do I keep on trying to feel rich when I truly am not?

Why do I look down on my own family?

Is it because I can't accept myself?

Today is the first day of December 2018. Few more days and it's Christmas! I planned my day last night because I am very excited for today. Guess what? I woke up badly because it was so hot. And I had a dream about my money that I don't know where it is now. We guess that somebody stole it. When I convert to USD, it is estimated $10. I know that it is a small amount to others but, in my country it is really hard to earn money and I am just a student who doesn't have a job. That dream made it worst. I started looking again for my money because I now I hid it. Tears dropped on the floor while I was looking for my money. I need those because I planned to save it to buy gifts for the people who helped me in school. My classmates who pushed me up because I was about to give up. I lost my money so, I decided to open up my coin back. I saved $20 enough for the people I'll be buying gifts. Problem solved.

I really don't feel well. I am having a back pain since August and it is already December. This past few weeks, I feel like vomiting and my teeth hurts. I went to the doctor and had my x-ray but, nothing is wrong said the doctor.